Though I'm probably starting to sound like a broken record, I just cannot – I repeat, CANNOT – read one more c-section birth story without throwing up. As far as I can tell, at least 70% of the May 08 Expecting Club has now had c-sections, and the responses to those birth stories (i.e. "oh, all that matters is a healthy baby" and "great, next time you can just schedule a c-section and not have to worry about labor!") are so unbelievably maddening and disturbing, they actually make me feel sick to my stomach.
I know the loyal readers of my blog tend to agree with my disgust. It makes so much sense to all of us. So WHY are there women who actually think c-sections are okay? I simply do NOT get it. I just need to understand.
Actually, No. I need to try to STOP trying to understand. The whole thing is so sick and twisted that I'll never be able to wrap my head around it, and I need to pick up "Silent Knife" and continue to read about successful VBAC stories, instead of reading about all these clueless women who think being cut into is some sort of fashionable trend. MOST of them come to their senses later, just like I have, and just like the other hundreds of thousands of other c-sect victims all over the web just like me who still cry when they recall their "birth" experience.
Maybe I need to stop thinking of them as the enemy, and remember that they, too, are just ignorant victims of this twisted societal trend. After all, if I hadn't been like them at one point in time, I would never have had that c-section. I thought modern medicine had the answers. I thought women who did it "naturally" were stupid hippies with something to prove. I laughed when my doctor made fun of the dumb "granola" chicks who labored at home even though they had the best insurance money could buy. I need to remind myself of how clueless I was two years ago, and not be so angry that these women are just as clueless.
I guess it's the numbers I can't get over. I mean, seriously…. 70%. Christ all mighty.
Okay, that's it. I can't think about this anymore. And I WILL NOT read one more c-sect birth story. **breathe, Gina…. just breathe…… now exhale.**
IMHO, I honestly think women (especially in the beginning) sugarcoat their cesareans, or at least try to make themselves feel better that they ended up with one. Sure, there are some women who really prefer cesareans(even if they are told time and time again, shown study after study--that primary medically unnecessary cesareans are riskier than vaginal birth) but that is not the majority.
I was one who was "okay" with it at the beginning. Then I started questioning it, the doctor's actions, the unnecessary induction, and got my medical records, and then I was ANGRY.
I think lots of women don't want to even go there. They just accept the cesarean. The they go on and accept the repeat cesareans. "Ignorance is Bliss", right?
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